2015

i miss my blog so much.
i miss facing my laptop typing on a weekend.
i miss the time i have so many to post into my blog.
i miss reading other blogger's post.
i miss re-read my post to find my grammar mistake.

Time tick tock away so fast.
Time flies.
Time will never stop for you.

I realized i do grow older.
I realized my thinking has changed.

In the end, i long only for HAPPINESS,
of me, my families and friends.

A printing day

its been a long time...

ever since i got dayre, never thought i will be updating any post here anymore.

and now i dont know what should i type here..

Life is getting better.

Life is becoming more organized. 

I started to feel that there is not enough time.

Every seconds in life should not be wasted.

When i have free time, i keep on think that any other things that i haven't complete?

Or...what have i completed so far?

When you turn back or look forward for the things that you want to do, it feels like an achievement.

I try not to think too much about money. 

Because one thing i learnt on these few events on life, money will never be enough.

So why think too much about it? There are more on life we can be happy of.

Career progression, Self improvement.....

Its get much satisfaction.

Well it is on my case lah~

Until then, Happy weekend. 

Sunday

I am recovered from the flu!
Yes!

I feel so not organised these few days.
I have been thinking about my job hunting in kk soon.
How long will i sailing directionlessly this time..?
There are few jobs opening now,
But i really not ready to send out my resume.
Everyone keep advise and ask me to find a job asap,
But i am really not ready. Dont stress meee haha

So whats the plan?
Slow and steady.

Hmm......

Tomoro working again....

Wuarghhh...!!!!!!!

A note to myself

When i scrolling over the facebook,
i saw my grandpa's photo uploaded by my uncle kiong.
i saw wenna's birthday photo at kampung.

Right now,
I know i did not make the wrong decision to go back.
I really dont want to be away from my family.
i dont know about how you all but for me,
i born and grew up surrounded by my relatives and cousins.
the bonding that grew among us is hard to describe by words.

in kk,
we will always go back to the village ( Papar & Beaufort).
I can say that i dont like the kampung environment.
But ever since i get into this urban area,
my perspective change.
there is no place as best as my grandpa's small little wooden house.
It might not have the best facilities ever,
but that is the memory that my parents, my uncles aunties have as they grew up there.

Decision is in my hands,
and i know i made the best every time.
yes.
Trust me,
i will be happier there.

This post is only a note to myself.

Future is in your hands.

Not ready...

I should update my resume.

but i dont feel to.

i dont want to leave here.

Mc

This week is finally over.
I only have 3 working days this week but its the hardest ever due to the flu and some other unecessarily stress.
Today is friday and im taking the mc leave.
Viral blood pressure lungs all are normal.
So have nothing to worry.
The doc that i went to is very good and efficient.
He dont talk unecesarry stuff and just go straight to the point.
Which makes everything faster.
And he even can speak bit chinese, shang feng = flu, ke shou = cough.
I really think that this is a good habit for people who works in service line to know more languages.
Right now, i have just consumed my cough syrup and slowly go to the dreamy land.
Until then, happy friday everyone!

Home Sweet Home

One thing i will do after back to Home Sweet Home.

Redecorate my room.

Previously,

when i  heard people said they want to buy their own house,

i will think like...erm..ok...buy lah...

i am not really into this property thingy.

But ever since i work for the developer,

where i  am surrounded with people who keep on buying property

and earn several hundred "k" from their investment.

I really want to get my own property one day in the future.

I prefer a small apartment but if i have lots of money sure I'll get a condo.

Since i cant afford one now, so i just have to focus on my parents' property 

hahaha....!

and literally my very own "property" is my room back in kk...

oppsie...hahaha....!!!

Photos are from google and for illustration only.

Repaint the wall.

Pastel is trendy.

My several furniture aka

 bedside table

study table

bookshelf

chair...etc

I want to Paint it ALL WHITE

Like this one.

and this one.

White and pink.

or

White and purple.

But....I know my artistic level is super low...

and it always would not turn out the way i want it to be.

so dream on~ dream on~

:)

September

Hello September.

Just finish a cup of coffee.

So many things happen recently

Good and bad.

Happiness come and go without u realize it.

So please appreciate what you have before it disappears the next minute.

……………………………………………………………….

The waiting is killing.

……………………………………………………………….

I would like to write more but

I am running out of words now.

September can you end faster?

I wanna go home.

Next phase of life

A major change soon.

I dont feel like want to settle yet.

I wish to work and travel far far away.

I hate when people judge you like....

"aiya, you dah study tinggi tinggi, dah ada topi empat segi, dah bayar mahal untuk belajar,

tapi keluar tak jadi civil engineer, apa you nak jadi ah??"

I sometime feels like want to flip table and give them a punch in the face.

Some words that i feel like want to throw back to their face...

You live in Stone age era issit? Now is 21st century and nobody will have a mindset like that. If you are knowledgeable enough by observing the successful people around you, that piece of paper and your pointer do not define you next phase of life. Some people have master in certain field yet they become a teacher in the end and still live a happy life. So what say you? Some people just have cert and diploma but in many cases they are the one who are successful than those who so called the clever stone age mindset. 

Right now i feel like want to take few bricks and throw to you face. grrrr *angry mode

I like here...

I wish to stay here...

but my problems aren't settle after few months..

and when you are not happy, you need to make a change.

Sometimes i am happy here with the lifestyle but sometimes i am sad when facing my challenges.

I made announcement to all closest friends already.

hehehe.....

to some that are far away...i owe you a story. *gomenasai

I am slightly narrow from my main topic today.

what is it again?

Cert and job.

Oh well....

cert doesnt define job, well thats in my case, 

you can condemn me at my back but its not you paying my study fees 

so stop being lunatic and making it a big issues.

I warn you, stone age freak.

I am tired of answering your retarded question.

From d' officia.

07.08.13

Yay! Its wednesday already.
Have been planning what to do after work today..
I wanted to eat durian so badly again but my consiousness tell me say noooo to it.
Enough with stomachache.
Period, durian, tomyam thai....
When you cant control your mouth, you suffer the later much much more than you can ever imagine...
Menstrual pain or stomachache, i cant differentiate anymore.

Right now in office.
Many staffs was on AL.
Its quiet that you can only hear the keyboard typing sound.
Its just 11am.....
Wuargh!

Its a long day to gooooo...

On sick leave

06.08.13

Today on sick leave.

I have been feeling uncomfortable for whole night after having the RM10 durian buffet.

my mom said, "padan muka, menceret lah kau sana..."

the fact is i no menceret...i only fart like no smell but all gas....

okay please dont feel disgust...hahaha

So its an off day.

time to rest and work harder tomorrow.

Its the last day working for this week.

Happy holidays!

achievement

Once upon a cny.....

haha....

found so many old photos back in old blog 2008 2009 2010

I cant believe i had been blogging for that long.

i know its not long enough compare other bloggers...

but hey its an achievement also...hehe....

one day when i am old, its surely will feel good to trace back all the memories.

*feeling good nao...

Throwback

Once upon a time.......

:D

That little relaxation on a saturday...

Some photos of yesterday... :)

zanmai-ing at Lowyat

br-ing at bts 

 Sb at bts

wish everyday is a saturday.....

happy!

Cake | Deli Asian

4^th august 2013

I missed baking cake.

Even though the cake I baked always fail, and most of the time I eat it all by myself,

I still enjoy the moment of baking it.

Or maybe I like the feel of stirring the ingredients like a pro. Haha J

Now when I just feel emo and tired, all I need is a cup of coffee and a piece of cake. J

Today is happy because right now having both of them v^.^

August is here.

3^rd august 2013

Happy birthday my dear father.

4th august 2013

Recently I found myself indulge in these two things : Tv series & Yoga

Hahahahaha

Tv series is thanks to Ally. Games of thrones, 666 park avenue, Beauty and the beast…arrow…

Now every weekend I spend here is downloading these episodes and spends the rest of the days watching these all.

My internet line here is not good, I have to go café just can download sigh.

This place is no good. L

About yoga, I just started it.

A day 10 to 15 minutes.

Just the simple pose because my body is really not stretchable.

I cant bend touch my feet at all…balancing also not good…argh

So now just do the few basic like that fly fly pose hahahaha…

Very amateur….

But I hope I can really do it the proper way.

That’s all from me update. :D

:D

Life isn't that bad

28.07.13  Sunday 11.52am

Belloo!

Its end of the month and who is not happy ay? Ka ching ka ching $$ day.

This also marked my five months of staying here.

I am not sure I will stay here for how long but I will not give up to those obstacles I face or faced.

These obstacles have somewhat made me become stronger.

I am no longer afraid of doing things that I scared of.

I learnt to confront it to face it.

I am proud that I am not running away again this time. Hehe...

*But… I can’t guarantee that in the future. :/

However, this time I have to thank friends around me who keep on supporting me. Terima Kaseiii!

Without you all, it will be so hard here.

About work, I did chat with my senior about my opinions, his words had make me realized that : regardless concern about your salary, you need to learn as much as can while you still young and that would be your asset next time. If you turn back to your old place, you are reversing. When everyone is moving forward and you are reversing, you lose.

I take that as wise wisdom.

I do have my own reasons sometimes and this time I realized I have to put down my egoism.

I am too stubborn to go back my comfort zone. 

I always think that what I plan is the best for me.

How foolish i am.

I am glad I made that decision five months back. No regret nao. Nay!

But then, I mention there is no guarantee in the future, if my two big bosses instruct me to go back, I will still respect their decision. Because of them, I am what I am today. I love you both! Sobs. Haha

For the time being, I need to appreciate what I have now. I will learn and live with it and play along with the rhythm.

Happy Sunday everyone!!!

Flowery from Krabi

Sawadeekap. 

This is a souvenir from Krabi. Thank you miss finance executive. hehe..

It has slowly becomes a tradition in our friendship zone for everyone to buy souvenir when going travelling either domestic or international. 

I remember this started with kyee and i remember that the first souvenir that time is the Taiwan's cookies. I am not very sure..and the Water Mist Perfume. After that, everyone started the tradition to buy souvenirs for each other. hehe...

I love souvenirs so much..no matter how much it cost, i dont really care...I just love it! I love the feeling of seeing people go travelling and i love the feeling waiting to meet people to get my souvenir..hahahaha!!! Thanks miss finance executive, miss teedoo, miss putri condo haha and few others i didnt mentioned here.

Now i missed my souvenirs box so much which i left it in kk.

This year I think I will not go travelling due to my bad money management. However if i do, I am surely will grab something for you all... hehehe....

I miss travelling! 

Lazy...

Listening to Britney’s song right now.

I am actually have many things to do.

To revise structural.

To read my Khaleesi.

To food hunt.

To shop for new clothes and shoes.

To watch movies.

To visit new places.

I am however glad that I didn’t do some of it which means I can save “(

…again…every weekend is lazy days for me.

I do none of the above.

I just enjoys my weekends..

 wake up late, movie at home, facebook, candycrushcrushcrush, evening nap etc

#recently have been wishing to buy a new camera.

Something pink….something light….

But I doubt it will stay in the drawer…

Haha…..

So we forget about it first okay?

This new blog background have make me wanna spam post...hehe....

Sunday have not finish yet.

I am feeling great today!

yeehaaa!

Giliwot is sick.

21/07/13 Sunday

Its a great day and I have been laughing alone in my room...
haha!
View back old photos of us.
Video recording of throwing banana during the kundasang trip.
hahaha!!!!
..and also me and my mom photo where the NG part..
hahaha....
Selected some photos and upload in my mom's facebook.

...and Geliwood is critically sick now..my mom bring him to vet already.
I just hope he faster recover.
I just know "giliwot" in kadazan language is curly.
No wonder Geliwood got his that name until the doctor laugh at his name...haha!

...I miss everything in KK....the people....the family....

I will go back soon...wait me KK... :D