Sunday

I am recovered from the flu!
Yes!

I feel so not organised these few days.
I have been thinking about my job hunting in kk soon.
How long will i sailing directionlessly this time..?
There are few jobs opening now,
But i really not ready to send out my resume.
Everyone keep advise and ask me to find a job asap,
But i am really not ready. Dont stress meee haha

So whats the plan?
Slow and steady.

Hmm......

Tomoro working again....

Wuarghhh...!!!!!!!

A note to myself

When i scrolling over the facebook,
i saw my grandpa's photo uploaded by my uncle kiong.
i saw wenna's birthday photo at kampung.

Right now,
I know i did not make the wrong decision to go back.
I really dont want to be away from my family.
i dont know about how you all but for me,
i born and grew up surrounded by my relatives and cousins.
the bonding that grew among us is hard to describe by words.

in kk,
we will always go back to the village ( Papar & Beaufort).
I can say that i dont like the kampung environment.
But ever since i get into this urban area,
my perspective change.
there is no place as best as my grandpa's small little wooden house.
It might not have the best facilities ever,
but that is the memory that my parents, my uncles aunties have as they grew up there.

Decision is in my hands,
and i know i made the best every time.
yes.
Trust me,
i will be happier there.

This post is only a note to myself.

Future is in your hands.

Not ready...

I should update my resume.

but i dont feel to.

i dont want to leave here.

Mc

This week is finally over.
I only have 3 working days this week but its the hardest ever due to the flu and some other unecessarily stress.
Today is friday and im taking the mc leave.
Viral blood pressure lungs all are normal.
So have nothing to worry.
The doc that i went to is very good and efficient.
He dont talk unecesarry stuff and just go straight to the point.
Which makes everything faster.
And he even can speak bit chinese, shang feng = flu, ke shou = cough.
I really think that this is a good habit for people who works in service line to know more languages.
Right now, i have just consumed my cough syrup and slowly go to the dreamy land.
Until then, happy friday everyone!

Home Sweet Home

One thing i will do after back to Home Sweet Home.

Redecorate my room.

Previously,

when i  heard people said they want to buy their own house,

i will think like...erm..ok...buy lah...

i am not really into this property thingy.

But ever since i work for the developer,

where i  am surrounded with people who keep on buying property

and earn several hundred "k" from their investment.

I really want to get my own property one day in the future.

I prefer a small apartment but if i have lots of money sure I'll get a condo.

Since i cant afford one now, so i just have to focus on my parents' property 

hahaha....!

and literally my very own "property" is my room back in kk...

oppsie...hahaha....!!!

Photos are from google and for illustration only.

Repaint the wall.

Pastel is trendy.

My several furniture aka

 bedside table

study table

bookshelf

chair...etc

I want to Paint it ALL WHITE

Like this one.

and this one.

White and pink.

or

White and purple.

But....I know my artistic level is super low...

and it always would not turn out the way i want it to be.

so dream on~ dream on~

:)

September

Hello September.

Just finish a cup of coffee.

So many things happen recently

Good and bad.

Happiness come and go without u realize it.

So please appreciate what you have before it disappears the next minute.

……………………………………………………………….

The waiting is killing.

……………………………………………………………….

I would like to write more but

I am running out of words now.

September can you end faster?

I wanna go home.

Next phase of life

A major change soon.

I dont feel like want to settle yet.

I wish to work and travel far far away.

I hate when people judge you like....

"aiya, you dah study tinggi tinggi, dah ada topi empat segi, dah bayar mahal untuk belajar,

tapi keluar tak jadi civil engineer, apa you nak jadi ah??"

I sometime feels like want to flip table and give them a punch in the face.

Some words that i feel like want to throw back to their face...

You live in Stone age era issit? Now is 21st century and nobody will have a mindset like that. If you are knowledgeable enough by observing the successful people around you, that piece of paper and your pointer do not define you next phase of life. Some people have master in certain field yet they become a teacher in the end and still live a happy life. So what say you? Some people just have cert and diploma but in many cases they are the one who are successful than those who so called the clever stone age mindset. 

Right now i feel like want to take few bricks and throw to you face. grrrr *angry mode

I like here...

I wish to stay here...

but my problems aren't settle after few months..

and when you are not happy, you need to make a change.

Sometimes i am happy here with the lifestyle but sometimes i am sad when facing my challenges.

I made announcement to all closest friends already.

hehehe.....

to some that are far away...i owe you a story. *gomenasai

I am slightly narrow from my main topic today.

what is it again?

Cert and job.

Oh well....

cert doesnt define job, well thats in my case, 

you can condemn me at my back but its not you paying my study fees 

so stop being lunatic and making it a big issues.

I warn you, stone age freak.

I am tired of answering your retarded question.

From d' officia.

07.08.13

Yay! Its wednesday already.
Have been planning what to do after work today..
I wanted to eat durian so badly again but my consiousness tell me say noooo to it.
Enough with stomachache.
Period, durian, tomyam thai....
When you cant control your mouth, you suffer the later much much more than you can ever imagine...
Menstrual pain or stomachache, i cant differentiate anymore.

Right now in office.
Many staffs was on AL.
Its quiet that you can only hear the keyboard typing sound.
Its just 11am.....
Wuargh!

Its a long day to gooooo...

On sick leave

06.08.13

Today on sick leave.

I have been feeling uncomfortable for whole night after having the RM10 durian buffet.

my mom said, "padan muka, menceret lah kau sana..."

the fact is i no menceret...i only fart like no smell but all gas....

okay please dont feel disgust...hahaha

So its an off day.

time to rest and work harder tomorrow.

Its the last day working for this week.

Happy holidays!

achievement

Once upon a cny.....

haha....

found so many old photos back in old blog 2008 2009 2010

I cant believe i had been blogging for that long.

i know its not long enough compare other bloggers...

but hey its an achievement also...hehe....

one day when i am old, its surely will feel good to trace back all the memories.

*feeling good nao...

Throwback

Once upon a time.......

:D

That little relaxation on a saturday...

Some photos of yesterday... :)

zanmai-ing at Lowyat

br-ing at bts 

 Sb at bts

wish everyday is a saturday.....

happy!

Cake | Deli Asian

4^th august 2013

I missed baking cake.

Even though the cake I baked always fail, and most of the time I eat it all by myself,

I still enjoy the moment of baking it.

Or maybe I like the feel of stirring the ingredients like a pro. Haha J

Now when I just feel emo and tired, all I need is a cup of coffee and a piece of cake. J

Today is happy because right now having both of them v^.^

August is here.

3^rd august 2013

Happy birthday my dear father.

4th august 2013

Recently I found myself indulge in these two things : Tv series & Yoga

Hahahahaha

Tv series is thanks to Ally. Games of thrones, 666 park avenue, Beauty and the beast…arrow…

Now every weekend I spend here is downloading these episodes and spends the rest of the days watching these all.

My internet line here is not good, I have to go café just can download sigh.

This place is no good. L

About yoga, I just started it.

A day 10 to 15 minutes.

Just the simple pose because my body is really not stretchable.

I cant bend touch my feet at all…balancing also not good…argh

So now just do the few basic like that fly fly pose hahahaha…

Very amateur….

But I hope I can really do it the proper way.

That’s all from me update. :D

:D

Life isn't that bad

28.07.13  Sunday 11.52am

Belloo!

Its end of the month and who is not happy ay? Ka ching ka ching $$ day.

This also marked my five months of staying here.

I am not sure I will stay here for how long but I will not give up to those obstacles I face or faced.

These obstacles have somewhat made me become stronger.

I am no longer afraid of doing things that I scared of.

I learnt to confront it to face it.

I am proud that I am not running away again this time. Hehe...

*But… I can’t guarantee that in the future. :/

However, this time I have to thank friends around me who keep on supporting me. Terima Kaseiii!

Without you all, it will be so hard here.

About work, I did chat with my senior about my opinions, his words had make me realized that : regardless concern about your salary, you need to learn as much as can while you still young and that would be your asset next time. If you turn back to your old place, you are reversing. When everyone is moving forward and you are reversing, you lose.

I take that as wise wisdom.

I do have my own reasons sometimes and this time I realized I have to put down my egoism.

I am too stubborn to go back my comfort zone. 

I always think that what I plan is the best for me.

How foolish i am.

I am glad I made that decision five months back. No regret nao. Nay!

But then, I mention there is no guarantee in the future, if my two big bosses instruct me to go back, I will still respect their decision. Because of them, I am what I am today. I love you both! Sobs. Haha

For the time being, I need to appreciate what I have now. I will learn and live with it and play along with the rhythm.

Happy Sunday everyone!!!

Flowery from Krabi

Sawadeekap. 

This is a souvenir from Krabi. Thank you miss finance executive. hehe..

It has slowly becomes a tradition in our friendship zone for everyone to buy souvenir when going travelling either domestic or international. 

I remember this started with kyee and i remember that the first souvenir that time is the Taiwan's cookies. I am not very sure..and the Water Mist Perfume. After that, everyone started the tradition to buy souvenirs for each other. hehe...

I love souvenirs so much..no matter how much it cost, i dont really care...I just love it! I love the feeling of seeing people go travelling and i love the feeling waiting to meet people to get my souvenir..hahahaha!!! Thanks miss finance executive, miss teedoo, miss putri condo haha and few others i didnt mentioned here.

Now i missed my souvenirs box so much which i left it in kk.

This year I think I will not go travelling due to my bad money management. However if i do, I am surely will grab something for you all... hehehe....

I miss travelling! 

Lazy...

Listening to Britney’s song right now.

I am actually have many things to do.

To revise structural.

To read my Khaleesi.

To food hunt.

To shop for new clothes and shoes.

To watch movies.

To visit new places.

I am however glad that I didn’t do some of it which means I can save “(

…again…every weekend is lazy days for me.

I do none of the above.

I just enjoys my weekends..

 wake up late, movie at home, facebook, candycrushcrushcrush, evening nap etc

#recently have been wishing to buy a new camera.

Something pink….something light….

But I doubt it will stay in the drawer…

Haha…..

So we forget about it first okay?

This new blog background have make me wanna spam post...hehe....

Sunday have not finish yet.

I am feeling great today!

yeehaaa!

Giliwot is sick.

21/07/13 Sunday

Its a great day and I have been laughing alone in my room...
haha!
View back old photos of us.
Video recording of throwing banana during the kundasang trip.
hahaha!!!!
..and also me and my mom photo where the NG part..
hahaha....
Selected some photos and upload in my mom's facebook.

...and Geliwood is critically sick now..my mom bring him to vet already.
I just hope he faster recover.
I just know "giliwot" in kadazan language is curly.
No wonder Geliwood got his that name until the doctor laugh at his name...haha!

...I miss everything in KK....the people....the family....

I will go back soon...wait me KK... :D

Flora Festival

First of all, i would like to thank Michele for her invitation to sleepover at her place. She has been inviting me like few times and now only i decided to go there. Thanks to her mom too as becomes our driver. As a first timer, everything was wao! So huge, so new, so modern...so so so....you name it. What i like about her residency is.......no fence. So European house style. so so....you name it.  Both of them brought me to Alamanda which is just a stone throw from her residency. ^.^ Then night went to the flora festival there. Just a flower exhibition like that. But i am really impressed by the huge bonzai. I am not a flower expert but i just like to see colorful flower. :p 

I missed out Sabah's boat.

Uncle so pro.

Mich and her mom behind me. :p

Close enough.

Wrong

Something somewhere is so wrong.

I decided not to fix it.

Let it be and just let it be.

I have been so emotionally unstable and 

i guess it affected my health,

plus the haze effect too i bet.

I can feel it.

Since it happens in this way,

i just do what you did lah...

what u did is what you did,

i decided to do it the way you did.

wohoho...i sound like an evil person.

but yeah! 

I am giving a friendly warning nao.

but overall....

This week has been awesome! Thanks michele for you hospitality.... ^.^v

Marshymellow

16.06.13 Sunday

Today i am very lazy. Everything is not according to plan. Everything is pending. :/
Word of the day : Lazy

Today is The Dad's day but i am not around my dad.
I managed to call him up last night and they were outside at the vege restaurant together with my grandpa and aunts, i think they were celebrating fathers day literally. Well, my family is not into these kinds of celebration but sometimes they did do gathering together on certain celebration.

 Here's me and me dad photo...by cropping my mom away...hahaha...i am not that small kid anymore, he aint that young either...so i have my responsibility on my shoulder. wakakaka....jk

Marshmellow. I love marshy very very very much. Thanks RC for bought me one whole bundle of marshy so that i can eat everyday. Not so sweet just fluffy.. like!

New addition to my room. Edifier speaker, with bass one u know..not calang-calang punya. :D

So that now i can blast song and watch G.O.T with surround sound system...ayy jk lah.. just the laptop sound is not much satisfaction and that's why i get myself a new speaker. My room is much alive now.. :D

Yours truly, just finish doing face masking. Not the best feeling ever but feel resfresh again.
Till then, nap time. Tomorrow monday. OH no!!

Dull

Its 15.06.13

How is June so far?

As time goes by, we become wiser than yesterday.

I hope I really become wiser and not childish.

Not much is happening throughout the week.

Just a normal week.

I hope I can write more..

but nothing to share at the moment.

This blog becomes more dull... :/

Some :/

If there is anything you need my help or just simply a chat... please find me.

I dont want because I did not find you, then you dont find me...

I dont want you think that I dont care about you...

I am a very busybody person...i careeeeeee!

but if i am tired and i cant reply you, i surely will honest to you and tell you i am tired.

I miss everyone updates.

:/

Hola June

Hola!

Another week has passed…how are you doing lately?

I am started to live like a zombie.

All exciteness before this has gone slowly.

Daily routine like usual.

This week has been something different than weeks before.

Because he is back.

He cooked. He cleaned.

Pssh~ I am not lazy, its him willingly to do it because he had been living on a ship for weeks..

So maybe he feel excited to do that all…hehe

So far for my work, I am not handling any project currently.

I am just assisting every engineer here.

I like my company so much.

Everyone has been very good to me.

Learning progress is slow this week because I am becoming lazier day by day. Haha…

But then as day gone by, I started to realize the responsibility I need to bear soon.

During these few weeks, I also started to know to what extend my job scope will be.

It is mainly of structural… and structural.

I started to value the importance of live load.

0.5, 1.0, 1.4, 2.0…….

…and one thing makes me seriously regret…

 I should have learnt it back on year 2 but I have no any memory of learning it.

Blame who? No one and move on.

I will learn everything again.

Never give up nicole,

I know I can reach my dreams one day.

*keep your chin up and move on.

A friend came up and asks about my money usage.

Hahahaha….

It is quite a headache because I enjoy a lot here. :P

money flow faster than the drainage flow…

Hahahaha….

but then have no regret lah..

I am started to save for my travelling end of this year…. Hehehe…. ^.^v

June is here….

Guess it’s a calm june….

Because on my calendar, the only agenda is “Jinyin come”.

Hehe….

Louis and Ally on May

Jinyin on June

Everyone moved here. I started to miss home at this very moment.

I would really want to thank my beloved dad and mom for letting me out to this place.

I never really believe they will let me go.

I just hope they live happily every day and this is also a chance to train my brother to be more independent and take care of the family.

I really hope he will.

And again….

I hope everyone living well now.

Ciao!

Happy Sunday!!!!

Gmat

Wanted to write up something here...

Randy is back from his offshore work which means I am not alone now. hehe
but then i keep told myself, "hey nicolee! don't too comfort with this. This is just temporary..
he will leave soon."
yes, i know.
keep on reminding myself, dont depend on anyone or else you will suffer soon.

to my readers,
everything is fine here.
work is fine.
just that i use money like....ehem....
i will start to jimat jimat soon...

....and i just bought a new shoes yesterday...yeeehaaaaaaa

whats next coming up with my life?

june..... i am going to learn hard and work hard...and.....save hard. :P

He

26 May 2013

A quick update.

Randy is back!!!

:D

Back Again

Well hello readers...

Its 11th May 2013 saturday and here i am again at my home sweet home.
You must be wondering why i am here again.
I bought this ticket first and then before GE13, I had last minute decided to go home.
So i am at home for 2 consecutive weekends.

Traveling expenses of course is higher but dont worry i will try to cover it up soon.
*I PROMISEEEEE MOM!
haha..
So no more buying shoes after this...
Shoes obsession is really posses me.. :p
Today i just bought one sandal and one working shoes.
Actually i am really concern about it as i walk a lot at there.
Once a shoes is "not new", i will have this feeling of it may broken anytime.
So I will always "update" my shoes.
Some more its cheaper.
I found out shoes nowadays is really cheap.
...and with lots of variety too.
:-]

Okay these two times home, did not meet up any friends.
...except ky..!! haha....
Reason is I am very tired....I dont know. I back home. I am tired.
Its not that i do many heavy work, its just psychologically literally tired.
I just feels like i want to stay at home.
Avoid the sun.
Avoid people.
Just home and I.
Just cat and I.
Just dog and I.
I should not have did it.
But I dont know.

Now while writing this...
I am in my small yet comfortable living room.
with both of my parents..
and they are watching the documentary Bones of Buddha.
Wesak day is coming in next two weeks.
I am sad I wont be able to come home and celebrate with my dad.
But as my aunt told me, every temple is the same.
so she hope i can just go visit any temple there and bath our little Siddhartha prince during his big day.
:)

Randy will be back from offshore in two weeks time.
He had been there for a month and half.
And I actually could not believe I am alone all this time.
but of course thanks to michie's and ally's companion....and roanne yap too.
without you all I 'll die due to loneliness haha JK!
but may be it will develop my mental illness due to loneliness and only get connected to people through phone and internet.
Life is ain't that easy.
Without friends around...I mean like literally you are alone...
go work alone...
back room also alone...
and yes...in few months time you can go crazy...
...it....applies to me I assume. haha
and again. Thanks all for concerning me.
I am having my bad days there but....
this is what i ask for. * ya sounds lunatic
Life goes on.

24 years old.
24
24
24
24
24

6 more years and i am 30.

ok stop now.

That stupid condo that i am staying now will only set up the fiber optic on early June.
so.....damn condo.
will update again soon.
Till then.
Have a good May everyone.

Just me and myself

Its the general election 13 and I am coming home to fulfill my task.

3 days 2 nights is enough?

Not enough! but if i am given more time i scare i will become lazy.

7 more hours i will be at the airport waving goodbye to this homeland of mine.

14 hours ago, 

I was laying on the sofa all by myself at home.

It was suppose to be a mom and daughter day but my mom ffked me.

She want go back kampung to meet all her old friends at the polling centre.

My dad went back to vote at B'wan and direct back B'kau and overnight there.

My bro got his own agenda.

So being lazy and emo i just choose to lay while waiting tick tock tick tock for the time to pass.

....until my stomach growling.

I decided to go lone ranger hunting for food at the kk city.

Driving alone....

Listening to that unknown title song from bro's pendrive.

Soothing...

...but then tears fall down because i cant believe i am at here.

here all alone...

so much thing cross over my brain but i have to stay focus on driving 

so i stop thinking and drive.

Came to suria and find parking around tonghing.

all parking occupied.

three rounds.

I decide to go Upperstar segama instead.

The plan is only to fill in the stomach.

To friends at kk, sorry its not i dont want spend time with you all.

I just so mentally unstable...

and i know emo is not a good reason to give but that is the real reason of me..

ever since i leave home, i have to do my own decision.

sometimes i feel im brainless due to some stupidity action.

eg.

I bought last minute tickets.

I shopped nonsense stuffs.

Its just wordless.

I have everything here.

But out of comfort zone is what i seek for.

Am i stupid?

Am i really that stupid?

seek knowledge..gain experience...

yes i did.

but i started to lose my direction.

If i stay here, i forever depend on everything given to me here.

I will be the laid back me.

If i go there, i cannot stop but have to push myself to move forward.
sometimes when i push myself too hard,
i really cant handle myself.
sometimes i even feels want to give up.

Think again....this is what i seek for.

I have to sleep now.

Nite black black world. 

First time...first time...and first time.

It has been almost a month and half i came here.

Just doing a quick update here.

                                                                     

This is my room....

First time ...... malacca.

...durian cendol

My spiritual support.

First time....DeliFrance

First time....Tappers

First time....Temple near Klcc

First time.....  Roanne's office

First time...Pavillion

First time...Nandos

View from lift 1

view from lift 2

place i live....

till then...ciao